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God, that sounds terrible, sending you love, light and the strength to let go.

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sometimes i feel so overwhelmed bc i know terrible things are going to happen to me eventually,, and i forget that equally amazing things are going to happen as well!! this piece reminded me that i’ll be able to handle the bad things when they do arrive!

thank u so much for this, your words are so authentic :))

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Thank you so much grace!

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Life is the perfect mix of terrible and amazing. The fun part of it all is that we get to deal with both! And shape our lives the way we want to.

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This reminds me of that saying “don’t borrow future grief.” It’s going to come whether you worry about it or not. It’ll feel horrible in a way you can never anticipate or imagine. But two things are certain: it’ll come and you’ll get through it somehow. So why not enjoy now when it isn’t here? This was beautiful; thank you for sharing it with us.

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omg, thank you so much, that goes so well!

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"Two things are for certain, it'll come and you'll get through it somehow" just sent chills down my body. So so true.

Never heard the saying about future grief before but I am def writing that in my journal tonight!

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From someone who suffers from constant anxiety, I love this! It is inevitable grief- cannon moments if you will that humans all go through. But the good moments, the moments when you feel alive and present with the people you love surrounding you, is what will get you through the other side when the grief does come <3

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Those moments are what outweighs the cannon moments, so so true!

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Exactly Iris!

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This was what I needed to remind me that overthinking will not save me the heartache, it will only make me live it multiple times. So I must let go.

Thank you for this, it hit home.

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Yes ooo

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this found me at just the right time! What a comforting piece during tumultuous times 💕 thank you for sharing

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This was actually such a…lovely thing to read. I wish my brain would heed to your words. I wrote this some day last month. “Have you ever mourned in the absence of cause? That your mind would create a puzzle from perfectly structured sentences, spoken to mean no harm but somehow lost in translation through your overly sensitive ears. Why have you chosen to be tormented by thoughts of dread? How difficult is it to let go of the things that cannot be controlled?” I was having terrible thoughts, like I always do anyway but it felt worse. I was consumed by so much fear I almost cried during a church service.😅

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My friend, SUCH a great read. "Be tender, be tough, be brave." love love love love.

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thank you !

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i've been forcing myself to do things lately that make me afraid. my dad once told me that courage isn't the absence of fear but rather, it's braving those scary parts of life despite your fear. doing those scary things makes me trust myself more.

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Oh myyyy. This statement "Anxiety is stewing in the grief before the tragedy strikes." stopped me in my tracks. Writing it in my journal right now to remind myself constantly. Thank you.

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One thing thats constantly troubled me in retrospect is how I react to the bad things that happened to me or that I've I put myself into. Since recovering from those specific scenarios, I've lived in fear of my own incontinence and, consequently, in fear of any potential hindrances that may contribute. My own obsession with forecasting what could go wrong and my attempts to avoid any forms of conflict, tension or turmoil only made it more difficult to work through my problems and move forward. I'm terrified of what might happen and my own often debilitating reaction to any form of challenge. That unwavering anxiety was equally as suffocating as the active stress and barriers that would appear with that adversity, I'm learning to let that go!

Thank you for this, its painful to grieve the past but even more daunting to grieve the future! I want to enjoy what I have and build the strength to brave my inevitable losses. Great writing :)

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*”Anxiety is stewing in the grief before the tragedy strikes. But it doesn’t matter how much you’ve stewed. There’s still plenty of boiling left to do.”*

If I could get that entire paragraph tattooed on me I would. Even just the final line, I would remember it forever…

Beautiful.

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this is my first impression of ur writing and woah

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This was incredible truly 💜

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this was such a beautiful read, thank you i love!!!!

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Beautiful, heat felt and oh so honest. What else could one ask for.

Thank you.

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